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Bio.
Syidaah nyetnyet! ♡ ,yes that's the name. 16 still, 23march93. I believe relationships at th mean tyme is impossible. A gerl at th age of seventeen won't meet up with true love so easily. Staying as friends are much better ((:
My blog is for me to bring out my inner thoughts. I'm complicated. trust me.
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♥ Date: Wednesday, March 17, 2010
goodnight lovelies.
; never let a gerl fall if you don't intend to catch her.
i fell deep. he caught me.
spare me from miseries. gving myself a glimpse of hope.
may god open hys eyes WIDE open.
let th talk be sweet & simple. let it be true.
anyhoo, happy 10th birthday nazriq.
:) awak cute selalu. be my boyfie please? ahaa.
alaa, abg tk dpt, adq pn jady lur. ;D
♥ Date: Tuesday, March 16, 2010
my bday is a day actly, i have nver lookd forward to. ironically its true. it's a day i always realise how incomplete my lyfe is. i am pretty good in pretends. to be super happy. but deep down, NOBODY knows how truly i feel. my true self is a secret. keeping things short.
suckish day in 7 more days.
-.-" not feeling ebullient about it.
i lost total hope of getting into a r/s. please understand. i dont need another false hope neither do i need false feelings. i need something that could last. something meaningful. to those who thinks i treat love fr a mere few mnths & get over it so easily. you are wrng. there is a diff when i treat you as a friend and as more than a friend. get thys straight. I DONT PLAY GAMES. im sorry.
let's see who can truly endure.
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY RAS ((:
may kamu be happy always & stay funky jyeaw.
btw ras, i nver meant to leave you. i was caught up in a sticky situation. i nver meant to hurt you. i didnt leave only you at that tyme. i had my reasons. i know i was goin to hurt you more if i didnt let go. thats why i did. you'd nver know th truth.
btw ras, i nver meant to leave you. i was caught up in a sticky situation. i nver meant to hurt you. i didnt leave only you at that tyme. i had my reasons. i know i was goin to hurt you more if i didnt let go. thats why i did. you'd nver know th truth.
♥ Date: Monday, March 15, 2010
you are still my little baby. yes, lets dine together soon (:
oh baby, im glad to have you ard still. im much much thankful. yes, one part of th reason im not goin zirca tonight it's cause of you. sugar, tonight marks th night where we startd to be super close to each other.(zouk-15march09) (: since you are not going, im not going too. gaaah~
i miss you much. :D
with th sweetest smile,
iloveyousexyboy.
♥ Date:
im backk! tired and i need my sleep. ((:tmr got cip.gaah.
will update soon. 12 requests,29 updates fr just two days. -.-"
naqib, im sorry i could not be there when you needed someone.
how was i to help? im so sorry naqib, really sorry.
♥ Date: Wednesday, March 10, 2010
a petition was made against th unfairness brought upon to our class. even our dm agrees with us. it was unfair that that teachr did thys to us. but he told me that if we want to ask tk teacher to give in, we must give in too. he'll talk to th teachr soon abt it. see, th innocence are brought to justice. ((: i soo wanna be a lawyer. gaah~
look at th comments my class made. :)
(oh, thys teachr separatd th class into two - ferst class citizens & second class citizens)
- it is unfair to those who cannot see
- as a teacher, you need to help th students, not send them to th back of th class.
- it's unfair that he 'separates' us from th class. no matter how naughty we are, he should not do this.
- its warm in th back of th class.
- it gives us a chance to talk & distract th class.
- he is just giving us a chance not to pay attention at all. as a teacher he shld guide us.
- people all want to STUDY.
- he shld not do this whereas he shldbe more understanding rather than discourage them.
- i think this kind of rude. everybody deserves a second chance, rather than separating us with th clever ones.
- he is being a bias.
- we shld not be calld SECOND CLASS CITIZENS OF TH CLASS. everybody is th same, only their character differenciate them. no matter what, evryone is of th same level. those who are calld th FERST CLASS CITIZENS OF TH CLASS are just th same as us. they do th same things as us. only their choices are different.
- simon wants ice-cream. ( i so doubt simon wrote thys)
- by separating th class, we feel emotionally disturbed by th fact that th teacher is trying to say that we are useless and has no hopes. we are still young & not everyone is going to have th same perspective. as an adult, he shld be much matured & react in a more sensible way. & not by trying to pull us down. we are having our n'lvels thys year & it would much helpful if th teacher were to push us up & to help us thru. we do want to pass our subjs. but by how thys teacher is treating us, we are unable to concentrate well & by that, our studies will not be as good. he is unreasonable, bias, nd tell hym to be more pragmatic.
- hate th attitude. BIAS.
- by putting th students behind, th student will feel more upset & not willing to study. as a teacher, he shld help every student in th class and not only those who he think can excel in his subjs. thatstotally biased.
- i think he is having menses. then he has mood swings.
I WILL FOREVER FIGHT FOR MY OWN RIGHTS. IN EVERY ASPECTS.
anyhoo,HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ZULHELMI!!! ((: may you be happy selalu okiee.
god bless you. gaaah~
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♥ Date: Tuesday, March 9, 2010
i slept soundly last night. thank you love fr speaking to me. tho you were reluctant at ferst. you did hear out my thoughts last night. thank you. & aftr that i creatd thys one long msg(previous post) as i was abt to send th msg. he textd me askng whether i was asleep. then i calld hym. we had a pretty decent chat. gosh, i miss you soo much. he complaind abt what ppl msgd hym nd calld hym botak(forever sia dekniy complain2)haha. then suddenly as were talkin abt thys santau story. our line was cut off. due to hys hp pblm. hmm, strange tho. so isent hym that msg. but aftr soon, he miss calld me. so i calld hym. at that point of tyme he had not receive my msg. but when he did. i told hym not to read it. read it only when he's awake th next day. but knwing hym well, he did open still. nd read th whole thing. we continued chattin. till he fell asleep as i was singing to hym. gaah~ (old habits won't change, huh?) ((: then aftr i thought he was asleep, i suddenly heard hym drink water. hahaha. siaak. then mummy calld nd i had to talk with mum. so, i told hym that i had to put down. smtg is not right abt thys hse.nd i know it.
in th mrnng, i woke up & i received a msg frm hym. :D overjoyed, i swear. then i replied telling hym to takecre. then he told me abt th ppl there. th matreps nd how they still smiled. i joked abt askng if there is anyone handsome there.haha. XP
thank you love, fr making me smile in th wee mrnng. it's been so long since i felt that happy.
anyhoo, im gonna say one thing. 4s2 rocked just now!
haha. we did that 'nina nina' thing. nd it was damnnnn hilarious!! i laughd my ass off! *shaking butt* th video is in fb. i was masai, nd guess what. i dont care! haha. cause th laughs were much more valuable. ((: gaaah~
oh btw, i fckng hate YEO. im sooo protesting tmr.
gdnytee readers, nd stalker :P
♥ Date:
a msg to hym. :(
as i said, tonight would be our last. bfre i move away. i just want to let you know of how im thankful to you. i know you are my mr right. even when you are gone. it's okay. i'll let you go tho. cause if we're truly fated, we'd meet again. dancepartnerr, crazy gerl, baby prince, B1,baby love, sweetest lullaby,muhammad naqib e'zuwan. you are worth more than anything in my lyfe. you had made such a pact to my lyfe. i told you i treatd you more than a friend it's cause i treat you lyke my other half, my big brother, my companion, my dad, my only one. you're a good guy deep inside. i know you well. im gonna miss your sillyness, your way of laughing, your cheerfulness, your crazyness, your imaginations, your complaints,your blind jealousy of poohbear, your way of treating me, th way you hold me tight nd brush thru my hair. i miss th tyme when we didnt want to see each other go. that, i almost wantd to tear up. but i knew it was not our last. but, i was wrong. im not moving on as simply. cause you were th best that had came into my lyfe, which i knew i could hold onto. th one i knew was so right. my fairytale prince. th bad tymes im sure to miss too, cause that was what that brought us close. nd also our cheesy talks nd gaah~, naughty moments. ;) ihope you will lead a good lyfe after thys. i've nver put a line to your expectations, nver have i tried to push you reach my standards. as i accept you fr th way you are. from th start till right now. dearest one, if only you could see through my heart. you could see what faith, trust, hope, sincerity truly means. (i once said it to ur ex gerlfie) i had been sincere all these while, waiting faithfully, with hopes of getting you closer to me nd to trust you despite of whatvrr had happened. till th day i meet you again, you would receive smtg from me. im a lady who would keep her werds. nd maybe aftr that,if we meet up again, my promise i once made, i'd show it to you. i once made th decision of waiting fr you no matter how long cause i know there's a good thing that will come out of it. i knew i had th courage to do so. as i believed in myself. karma & retribution circles th werld. that's how truth speaks fr itself. when one day you know th sincere truth of lyfe, of fate. you don't have to worry, cause i'd be waiting to guide you through your lyfe. you will never be alone, as long as i live. 241208, our special night. i rmembered everything, till countdown, zouk(15th march, :( ) malay village, ina's chalet, arena, st.j( during june hols), th tyme i went down to search fr you, st.j(barnone), th day you told me to come down at th very last minute( still 2009), our last two meetups quite recently. excluding th tymes i see you in my dreams. ((: oh yes, i've been dreaming of you quite recently. nd i usually have dreams of ppl. wher th whole dream was abt that smeone ONLY is when i miss that person so much. so, in other werds, my nights had been lonely without you.sigh. it's about how i am to face my lyfe without you im afraid of. oh, at th mean tyme don't change ur nmberr. incase i need to tell you abt 'smtg'. but, if it comes early, then i'll tell nd you could change aftr that. but if it has not, then maybe it's tyme we have another talk. but don't worry at th mean tyme i shall not disturb you. my lyfe had been thhappiest when you were around. you can crack me up till i can drop nd laugh. well, tmr is gonna be a suckish day cause i've to wake up nd stuff th facts into my head that aftr thys mrnng, you will no longer be around. it would have been wonderful if i could have stayed around much longer. knwing that i could still smile early in th mrnng. but well, it was your decision. babyy, everything happens fr a reason. maybe god put us thys way fr a reason. don't werie, i still love god & my mum. i bear no grudges against you. meet you again, someday. I LOVE YOU, MUHAMMAD NAQIB E'ZUWAN. you're th greatest thing that has happnd to me. i will, ALWAYS love you. *a long meaningful kiss on your forehead* i'll wait till god brings us together once more. ; nurul syahidah bte abdullah.
♥ Date: Monday, March 8, 2010
im going through a very complicated & harsh phase in my lyfe. thank you guys who tried to support me. ((: i think i know why im not so dampened. mayb bcse all those craps he had given me. i bcame too tired out of it.
anyhoo, im watchin a kinda show from : www.notsosecretlives.com
i overheard it from our local radio nd they say it's good. so im checking it out (:
ohh, skipped a few periods in th mrnng of schhl. hanged out at em's place.we watchd santau. disgust & scaryy. but syioook glerrr~ hahaha. came backk fr maths class tho. okie, i wanna watch that citer. & dad's at home. more pblms approaching. gosh how am i to cope? i got my big exams thys year.
gaaah~! may god have mercy.
i love god & i love mum
♥ Date: Sunday, March 7, 2010
for you readers. im keeping things simple. OFFICIALLY, im not in contact with naqib anymre. for now(: im not giving up something so simply.
BUT, im giving up on having a r/s anytyme soon. i need to find my true self backk. i need to find th inner me once more. i need to gain backmy confidence nd start fighting backk.
mum told me a way to move on is to think of th negative parts? but one thing about me is that im a positive thinker & im a forgiver. no matter what mistakes ppl can make, i'll tend to accept them backk. still, i need help. got a back up plan anyone?
♥ Date:
looks lyke someone still cares (:
despite all of it, he told my mum to take care of me. to make sure i'd pass my n lvl. then take up my o lvl. then he thankd my mum fr idk whaat.
mum didnt tell me naqib. my conscience did. haah, well, actly she didint dlete ur msg & thats how i got to know.
sighh, ego aside fr now huh? if only he could tell me straight. thank you babylove. you're deeply appreciated despite us being apart now.
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